Praying for peace











{August 5, 2008}   Confusion

Does it happen with you often? You tend to become indecisive? Always in a dilemma…

As for me…yes it does happen many times…I don’t know why, but sometimes it leaves me all the more puzzled. I am in this constant hurry to set things right and actually end up being even more confused. May be it has also got to do with the kind of mental situation one is in, but I have been like this all my life. Despite being regarded as level-headed and matured by friends and close ones, I have ended up taking several wrong decisions. Some bad enough to change the course of my life…

Why am I like this? I wonder sometimes…Why me…if I would have had the ability or the levelheadedness to take the right decisions at the right time, may be things would have been different for me. No, I’m not blaming myself but rather brooding over my inability to be a smart decision maker. In fact, I have inferred from the various instances in life that my confused state of mind has been responsible for many ‘unavoidable’ goof-ups.

And, I also believe that blaming one’s destiny all the time is a very sly way of avoiding one’s own mistakes. I mean not that I don’t believe in destiny, but our karma too has a role to play. We all fight confusions at some point of our lives but what’s more important is what happens after the fight. That is, do we emerge victorious by taking a well-thought of decision or we just decide anything randomly.

I agree that sometimes even the most practical decisions go haywire, but that doesn’t mean one stops taking decisions in a matured way. Apparently, someone recently told me that one’s gut feeling plays an important role in taking decisions…there’s this yes and no from inside that stops you from doing something. It constantly haunts you, reminds you not to go for it…but we thinking it’s just our inner fear…take the plunge…and almost get drowned.

So, how to fight this confusion? How to take the right decision at the right time? How to keep a balanced head? How to make everything ‘close to perfect’ in one’s life?



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